Thursday, August 23

!!!!!

i updated my website!

and i'm moving back to New York!
i don't have a place to live yet but whatever!
i'll be graduating from Parsons in may!

sidenote, i'm all about my tumblr these days...


and my dog is still cute as hell!!!

Monday, August 20

Rita Rita Sunflower

i'm an august baby. my birthday was the 12th. i got myself a present: an iphone, something i've been wanting badly for a really long time. i'm on instagram now: dgibbey.

this is the 2nd picture i took with instagram. the first was of dirty dishes in the kitchen sink that i had been putting off.


i captioned the picture "all the dead flowers in my house."
i think it is a beautiful picture. i always think dead flowers look so pretty. i think a lot of people agree – that's why they save them and press them between pages of a book, right?

my Grandmom, Rita, died early in the morning on august 8th in Downingtown, of natural causes. she was 97. my cousin, Rita Anne, died at night on august 9th in California, after the most courageous 5 year long battle with melanoma. she was 46.

my Gram had 12 children, 26 grandchildren, 49 great grandchildren & 2 great great grandchildren. i'm her youngest grandchild.

Rita Anne had 2 children, her daughter August is 4, and her son Charley John is 3. She also has 2 wonderful stepchildren, Simon and Ruby.

Rita Anne was blessed to find her amazing husband Charley about five years ago. My Gram lost her husband, Charlie, to cancer many many years ago.

I realize that i'm stating a bunch of facts and not elegantly so. i'm still heartbroken and bewildered. but there are so many overlapping connections here that i felt it necessary to push aside my desire to not include such a personal post on my blog...because really, at the end of the day i'm an emotional, creative, oversensitive Leo and when i think something feels important, i need to share it immediately and imperatively.

so it felt important to tell someone/everyone that both of the amazing Ritas in my life died with-in 2 days of each other, both of whom found the loves of their life in men named Charlie/Charley. and this all happened right around my birthday. (once again–Leo here–so i'm egotistical [not proud of that..just proud in general] so of course i feel this is of some special importance–like how Basquiat died on august 12, 1988, and i was born on august 12, 1989...)

In the instagram photo above, the 2 flowers in the center are from the bouquet of flowers on my grandmom's casket at the cemetery. people were taking some, so of course i took a giant sunflower. my mom took the pretty pink one.

Gram and Rita Ann are so important to me, and always made me feel so incredibly special. I know that there is a reason for Rita Ann passing so young–there must be a reason that her beautiful young babies made it to this earth before she passed. I've always struggled with feeling unimportant myself, like I wasn't meant to be here (i know–the Leo in me is like WHAT?! you cray...) But regardless of how I used to feel in my young, unsure teen days, i am 100% certain that i am suppose to be here, that I am important–as is every breathing thing that comes onto this earth.

Gram and Rita Ann played no small role in that self-assurance. They hold reign over a ginormous part of my heart. They are and always will be like the sunflower up there: majestic, beautiful, and somehow always living because who would throw away something so special that even in death, it brings beauty, comfort, and happiness to the world?


There are so many more facts i could state or connections i could make, but i'll leave it there for now. My family really is something special–their resiliency is remarkable and inspiring to me. I hope i can continue to breathe in their strength like air, and impact the world the way my grandmom and cousin have impacted me without even trying.





Rita and Rita Anne, may your souls rest in peace, and may your spirits always guide and comfort your family, who miss you so much. we love you we love you we love you.


    Do not stand at my grave and weep,
    I am not there; I do not sleep.
    I am a thousand winds that blow,
    I am the diamond glints on snow,
    I am the sun on ripened grain,
    I am the gentle autumn rain.
    When you awaken in the morning’s hush
    I am the swift uplifting rush
    Of quiet birds in circling flight.
    I am the soft star-shine at night.
    Do not stand at my grave and cry,
    I am not there; I did not die.

-a poem by Mary Frye




*Rita Anne's brother, my cousin John, lives with his wife in California, not far from where Rita Anne lived with Charley and their kids. He and his wife Cary are big on motorcycle trips and such, and they keep a blog documenting their travels. As you can imagine, John is heartbroken out there in California, and doing his best to be there for Charley and his family. His blog has some wonderful recent posts about Rita, her life, and spreading her ashes across her favorite places in California.
You can check it out « here »  if you'd like.

Saturday, August 11

wild ones

new hand drawn type poster

HEY

i have a borderline obsession with Flo Rida

Tuesday, August 7

A Hint of Lime

A Hint of Lime

His itchy ears perk up at the mention of
jerk chicken, sunset lulls, and
making love in sand beds –

but most of the time, the hints I leave
are subtle – clues tucked into sheet folds,
couch cushions, trouser pockets.
So many clues to my Innisfree,
my Rockland – they've begun to overflow.
He jokes, says This Is Our Longest Running Joke.
The cushions are frayed, the pockets
in need of mending.

Sepia hints, salt-rimmed hints,
pictures, buttons, the old t-shirt
I wore to bed. My snow boots
(the left in the cellar by the dryer,
the right in the kitchen under the sink),
a diet Coke, blue socks,
my favorite sweater – things
I won't need once I'm there.

I find him in the soupy evening
on our front lawn – barefoot,
breathless, eyes rimmed violet
and grinning. I ask about his arms,
coated in sunscreen, the beach towels
draping his shoulders, palm branches
fanning from the pockets of his
swim trunks – a mock display
of all of my clues.

He cries his knowledge at me–saying
Game Over, I've Figured It Out, saying
Not Like You Were Ever Gonna Leave.

I laugh – ask, Wanna Bet – and watch
his beady eyes narrow, his bare toes
drain – sand white – digging into our dirt.
He cries Too Far and See If I Care.

My clues litter the yard – left behind
like I'd planned it or something.

Wednesday, August 1

PoC launch

our first issue release party was a success yalllll ~*~ it was a great turnout, and so exciting to see everyone there to celebrate this thing we worked really hard on. [a personal thank you thank you thank you to my friends who came out! i love you like cake]


my tote bags and postcard prints on display --  image via pieces of cake's twitter







behold the shining and brilliant PoC mag editors, Christina and Robert


pic on the right c/o Xtina's instagram. i set up a sort of impromptu pop-up shop with some totes mcgoats for sale and postcards to grab, as well as my "oops baby" book and sketchbooks to browse through